In a time when words are wasted


N.N Trakakis

In a time when words are wasted. Repeatedly. In a time when one must struggle against becoming yet another living platitude. Defiantly. When everyone has depression, and pills will help you find yourself. Predictably. I look up at the skies of the infinite winter, attempting to read God’s handwriting. Confusedly. Standing at the edge of the night, I notice that the worst is yet to come. Fatefully. The smell of darkness encircling me, I remain still, pondering the silence. More and more.

You tell me you understand. Of course. That you’re not like the others. If only. But you, too, will betray me with a kiss, and this hour, too, will pass. Believe me. It is written: if you don’t love you’re dead, and if you do, they’ll kill you. You can bet on it. My stupidity, or as you wonderfully put it, my “lowly outcast loser perspective”, makes more sense than writing letters addressed to your favourite soapie character. Think about it. The hearse will finally take you to church, but I will not throw bread to the dead. Think about that, too.

The birds will eventually return, and I, living amongst the ruins of thought, will discover new words with which my a priori to express. Faithfully. I will remember to breathe just to stay alive. Decidedly. And it will be like the first gasp of air I drew at the moment of birth. Refreshingly. In this dream within a dream, words will constantly break free, unsaying what has been said and leaving the rest unsayable. Literally. The world slips into the endlessness of the end. Again and again.

N.Ν. Trakakis

About N.Ν. Trakakis

Nektarios Nikolaos (‘Nick’) Trakakis was born in 1972 in Melbourne from Cretan parents. He studied philosophy and theology at undergraduate level, and was awarded his PhD in philosophy from Monash University in 2005. He has taught Philosophy at Monash and Deakin Universities, and he is currently a Research Fellow in Philosophy at the Australian Catholic University. He has published two books and many journal articles on philosophical and theological themes. He has also published the following collections of poetry and prose: Tears (2005), Silent Transfigurations (2006), Via Dolorosa (2008), and Clearings (2011).
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